"I'd be lying to you if I told you none of this bothered me," McCutchen said Saturday at the team's PirateFest. "Of course it did. I'm human."
Despite that feeling and being "on edge," McCutchen said he's where he wants to be.
"My dream is to be a Pirate my whole career," McCutchen said. "My dream is still to win multiple World Series. We all have those dreams."
On Thursday, Pittsburgh general manager Neal Huntington said he talked to multiple teams at the winter meetings about McCutchen, but none of them were willing to meet his steep asking price.
"Our intent coming in here was to have Andrew McCutchen be in our lineup going forward," Huntington said Thursday. "No one changed that. It's unlikely someone changes that going forward. We're not going to close the door, but we're not going to be making calls."
"We took calls. We listened. We engaged," Huntington told reporters. "And not just on Andrew but on other players who are on one- or two-year contracts. As we will always do, if we find the right move and we believe the right move is to move the player, we'll move the player. If we believe the right move is to hold the player, then we'll hold the player."
The Washington Nationals were reportedly talking to the Pirates about McCutchen, but the Nats' trade for Chicago White Sox outfielder Adam Eaton on Wednesday appeared to end their interest.
McCutchen is a five-time All-Star and won a Gold Glove in 2012. He has two years remaining on his contract.
Though McCutchen has been given "no assurances," he has spoken to Huntington since the league's winter meetings ended Thursday.
"We had a really good conversation," McCutchen said. "I do understand he has a job. I don't understand what he has to do -- I can't empathize with that, just like he can't empathize with the challenges I could be going through. We had a good conversation. We basically ended it on good terms."
McCutchen, who won the National League MVP award in 2013, is coming off his worst major league season, posting career lows in batting average (.256), on-base percentage (.336) and slugging percentage (.430). He also had 24 home runs and 79 RBIs.
"You're going to have your off years, but it's all about what you do and how you come back from that," McCutchen said. "I'm looking forward to this season. I'm ready to go."